Why do dreams get lost?

Overwhelming discouragement

We get lost

Other things become more important

We forget them

We forget what it feels like to realize a dream

We are the type of person who is perpertually hard on ourselves, so we only see the failures

Constantly striving, so we move onto the next dream before the first is realized

We are a scattered mess

Not believing we deserve that dream, we settle for less

I realized a really big dream this week: To own a home. I have thought about it for a long time and been looking for places for a long time. It hasn't sunk in yet. Maybe when I go and lay down on the floors and run my hands along all the walls and sleep there and eat there, then maybe it will be real. But it is so funny how I am already moving on to the next dream, without really enjoying the fulfillment of this one. Typical. I spend a lot of effort thinking about the dreams that are impossible, or at least currently unattainable. For this one I am going to try to take it slow and enjoy it.

Slacker

Yes, I know, it has been ages and ages since I have written. So sorry. All my loyal readers probably stopped checking my blog now and I will have to completely re market my self. Alas, I have been writing, it is just that the things that I have been writing about were more suited to going in my handwritten journal than out on the web. That is quite a statement for me, since as most of you know, I have been pretty open about lots of things on this blog. But most of the things that I have posted about in the past, were, just that, in the past. And I had processed them and the other people had processed them, so while they were humbling, they were at least mutually known.

The things that I have been writing about lately are not mutually known, so I don't really want the various people who are involved to find out about my thoughts through my blog. So therefore you all will have to wait to hear.

On other exciting news, I have new digs, and I expect that I will be hanging out in these digs for longer than 9 months (my average homestead for the past 6 years). I have great plans for the new digs, and in the spirit of Apartment Therapy, I will be posting photos of all my work. Very soon I will post photos of the "Before" trust me it is a great "Before" as the place needs a lot of work. Right now it smells like stinky cat and has stains on the ceiling from an old roof leak. The toilet is pink porcelain and the stove is from 1964. So I definitely have my work cut out for me.

Additionally, I gave up on the triathlon ambitions for now, as getting to a pool has proved almost impossible. So now I am focusing on a duathlon. I can handle running and biking. I am aiming for one on Oct 25th. So I would love to post about training schedules. I am trying to put one together now.